Well here I am...
So after doing my nebs for a month continuously and having been off/ on breathing treatments for the last six months I called up my doctors to tell em I couldn't remember when my next apt was.
And we discovered I hadn't been in for ten months! Had an apt made, went in; discovered that my lungs blew a 93% PFT / FEV without inhalers. And begrudgingly I accepted this means I need to work out more and that I need to keep pushing myself each day.
And we discovered I hadn't been in for ten months! Had an apt made, went in; discovered that my lungs blew a 93% PFT / FEV without inhalers. And begrudgingly I accepted this means I need to work out more and that I need to keep pushing myself each day.
Also my curiosity about just how salty am I came up and discovered my best test was 164 ! How cool is that? I'm the saltiest kid I know, and no one on the group page had one higher, only a couple of people were within twenty points or so of mine. So for the next week I'm finishing out a routine of One and a half hours, twice a day. Also lame, my stamina hasn't been very good here recently and I have to force myself up and awake to get going. Fortunately I have a not insignificant supply of coffee on hand here and a pretty excellent selection of teas. The last couple weeks have been pretty much a mad house, had jobs lined up / they fall through so I find other stuff to do. Learning about the wood working with Dad to teach me. Hoping we'll have a business going soon with him showing me what to do.
Tonnes of plans, almost none of them worked out. Had a falling out or two, lost some friends because of political / religious views. "such is life". I have several projects I want to do but am waiting for funds so I can proceed with them and make my room more and more a home. I have a bed! I promised you photos, but that's delayed as right now I have it covered in books and things.
My story project for this coming November is starting to really take shape, the damned thing is though that I was working on it and lost all my chapter notes / character sheets that I had been working on in the computer. (somehow), well no matter this is why I write on paper anyway you look at it I have time and plenty of memory to work it out.
They say suffering is good for the soul, there's been some of that too along with some flavors of physical discomforts we'll see how it all works out in the end. I've learned some very hard and valuable lessons about personal responsiblity vs/ wanting to do things / help others this month particularly and my "Placing in reserve" started about this week. So from here on out my ability to help other people is weighed against their history of doing for me /others first rather than simply on their actual need. This seems selfish but if you think about it, I feel it makes sense. Rather than simply helping people "Because I need your help" stop and ask "Why do you need My help?" and "How did this happen to You particularly? " Sometimes, people fall into the same old habits of needing a hand up/out every so often. God knows I"m not free from this sin at all, but hopefully I will have learned my lessons and will soon be digging myself out and free from all the entanglements.
There are a lot of people, who time and time again have come to my aid. Rightly or wrongly and given me whatever I needed to keep me going or see me through, this month was no exception though the line up of friends and support was a little surprising. I have a lot of friend debts to repay and over time I will, with interest no doubt about it. I am living life on a different set of rules and timelines from most people; I never moved out and went to college. When I did go to college it was a fluke, almost a joke that got me in and then somewhat ironically a pretty girl who got me to actually go and get registered for real and then file for FASFA ( which is almost as easy and clear as the procedure for getting someone released from hell, purified and then elevated to heaven by the way ). I don't drive, but will probably learn to this fall, never worked the same place / job for more than six months continuously since most of my jobs were temp/seasonal. The first "real trip" I took, was when I was in my twenties with just one buddy on the train to Seattle and back for SteamCon 1.
That was the start of my knowing that my life would never be enough to see all the world I longed to see for sure. And the next time I took what most people consider "an actual trip" was to meet my girlfriend's family in San Fran' it was the only time I've flown anywhere also. If you can imagine that of the things I've never done; flying and driving are there on the list even into my late twenties.
This week I am working on finding a regular job, keeping my side jobs to help cover bills until something solid comes through. Working on writing projects and some small physical projects for friends that I"d put off.
That was the start of my knowing that my life would never be enough to see all the world I longed to see for sure. And the next time I took what most people consider "an actual trip" was to meet my girlfriend's family in San Fran' it was the only time I've flown anywhere also. If you can imagine that of the things I've never done; flying and driving are there on the list even into my late twenties.
This week I am working on finding a regular job, keeping my side jobs to help cover bills until something solid comes through. Working on writing projects and some small physical projects for friends that I"d put off.
World of Warships is amazing fun if you haven't tried it yet. I will likely be playing some tanks and planes again soon as I miss them both. I am relentlessly planning more games and other projects that will likely never get tested out for table top games. And sadly for the time being am selling all my 40k stuff to ensure no shortage of cash this week with the upheaval of several plans that simply didn't come together.
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Anyhow that's a short summery of somethings which have happened or hope to have happen soon.